Baby blues before baby

lately i have been realy down and depressed and i couldn't tell you any one reason i have been feeling this way but i just dont feel like myself. i cry for no reason and get upset over little things. im just so tired of being pregnant. my hips hurt and i can't find a good position to sleep. i feel like no one realy cares about me. i miss my husband and want to spend more time with him but he just doesnt seem to be there when i need him. i feel like im the last thing on his list of the many things he has to take care of and that not his falt his plate has bee over flowing with inportant things he has to take care of like school, work, kids, the car, his band, extended family, unemployment, ect.... i dont know i just want to be selfish and i want to keep he all to my self. i just feel like i cant express what im feeling and if i try it comes out wrong and matt fills gilty about thing he shouldn't. i just feel he has no time for me but the time goes so slow for me i still have 10 weeks left and if she is anything like her brother you can tac on 2 more weeks just for fun.

He's a big Boy Now!

xavier's big boy underware.
washing his hands with his foam kids soap

sitting on the potty

This was his very first poop on the potty he was 1 1/2 in this picture.

It's been a very long, and hard, and at times gross process, but he is finally there. My little boy is growing up and is now potty trained. I started this whole pottying thing when xavier was 18 months old so its been ayear and a half. I guess what they say about boys being harder to train then girls is true. Im so glad that I wont need to buy 2 sets of diapers and at least for the next 2 months I only need to buy night time pants. I am hopeing I can get him to learn to potty by him self so he can go to pre-school by the time the baby comes that way he has his own thing and want be jealouse of the baby. He is getting close he can pull his underware down sit on the potty and wash his hands all by himself, but he has trouble pulling up his underware and wipeing him self. How do you teach a 3 year old to wipe the proper way so he doesn't have anything left on his bum? Any way like any mom with there first kid I got some pictures of xavier through out the process. so here they are!!!

OUR BABY

This is me at 28 weeks which would be 6 1/2 months. We are haveing a baby girl and are so happy. We have not choose a name yet and it showing to be a harder task the second time around. It's so hard to to think about having 2 kids i have no idea what it will be like. It took me 3 years to get used to being 1 kids mom and know there is another little baby on the way and it's not someone ealse baby that i have to give back. She's my baby, my daughter. I didnt think i would be that luck to get to have both a boy and a girl and there were some people that had me conviced that i was only going to have boys. I am so thankful to have my son and now a new little girl. I thank God every day. Now it's just so hard to wait to untill November.

MY SON AND HIS BIKE

This is xavier and his big wheel that he got for his birthday.

We tried to put it together the night before his birthday party when he was slepping. We didnt know it was going to be alot harder and louder process. so he ended up wakeing up and we couldn't get him to got to bed so his bike sleep in his bed and he sleep in our bed. He loves his bike and says it perfect so funny and cute. He doesn't get to ride out side as much as he would like because it a little to hot during the day. We useally go out and ride as the sun goes down when it a little cooler. It will be nice in the winter time i can start joging and he can ride his bike.

Matt snorse realy loud. pore man he is always so tired. i wish he had more time to hang out with me.

so xavier is 3 now and i love that he can do a lot for him self. he is so independent and in the process of potty trianing. He is to the point were he can tell me when he has to go. now if i can only get him fully potty trained by the time the baby comes then i can put him in pre-school. i think he realy needs the socializing. some days i look at my son and wonder how i could be so lucky to get such a wonderful kid. he is for the most part very good and listens to me. i just hope my luck hasnt run out with our 2nd baby.